Well, I think the lack of an update in May probably speaks volumes.
Manage my health better; good diet, regular exercise, good sleep routine, balanced work/life, positive thinking and good mind/spirit/body maintenance.
Good diet: May and June really saw me backslide a lot. Yes, I’ve kept some track of my points but I’ve stopped planning, preparing or if I plan and prepare, I’ve stopped with the follow-through. Some of this is driven by a spin through the depression cycle. I got depressed and everything is a battle; everything becomes touched by fatigue and lassitude. It’s hard to pull myself up in that respect. So, today; new week, clean slate, let’s start again.
Regular exercise: Same as with the diet – I’ve ended up backsliding quite badly. Some of it is the depression; some of it is the fatigue; some of it just the new availability of taxis closer to my workplace. I need to make sure that I’m choosing the healthy option to walk up the road even if it adds time on to my day.
Good sleep routine: Definitely a miss here. In my depressed state, sleeping well is not happening which includes a very stubborn refusal to just go to sleep already and turn the light off at a decent time.
Balanced Work/Life: I’m still doing better here than in other jobs so that’s a big plus – I’m being more ruthless about prioritising (I need to make sure I’m balancing that with what I’m promising in terms of turnaround and timescales though) and I think I am creating time in my ‘life’ side. I’m not convinced I’m spending it wisely but I have created time which is a huge step forward.
Positive thinking: Depression is not a great motivator for positive thinking, even if positive thinking is a way out of the spiral.
Good mind, body & spirit maintenance: Yep. Backsliding. I feel better when I do this. I just can’t maintain (no pun intended) it.
In terms of this objective being a foundation for others, this last month and a half has been a real struggle. I’m determined to draw a line though and ensure just because I have let things slide recently, that I reverse that momentum and if not start all over again, at least move forward from here.
Spend quality time with family and friends; make time and make sure I have energy to keep my promises and spend the time with people!
I did manage to spend time with family and friends over May and into June my Dad has arrived back so no option now! The one reschedule was not mine so that was good.
Get settled in my new job, map out my future ‘work’ and make it happen; get an achievable plan for my future career.
I’m definitely settled and I’m beginning to feel that I understand the size and shape of what I need to do and build going forward within this role. There’s some uncertainty and concern because leadership is changing but I like my boss, I have a good team and we’re making a difference.
What I don’t have is a ‘what does the future look like in five years’ – what is the ideal for me beyond this job. I do need to do some thinking on that.
Write what makes me happy; make writing enjoyable again.
As is often the case when I’m depressed, it doesn’t lend itself to writing. I’ve picked up again in the last week and I’ve signed on for another challenge to hopefully get myself in the mood again.
To summarise: The last month health-wise has been difficult and as is often the case when that happens, things go slightly out of kilter food and exercise wise (because clearly we need to compound the problem). I’m drawing my line, I’m refocusing and I’m going to move forward from here. The choices I make are important for my health and they’re important in making sure I have a life beyond work – in all meanings of that phrase. Onwards. Forward. Let’s agree to start winning some ground back.